Who am I?

Me?
I am a nobody.
Just another voice in the distance,
A figure in the shadowy corner that is my life.
I am a time bomb,
On which my timer resets at random.
Never quite on track with the rest of the world always three steps behind,
I can't take it!
This is not worth my effort,
My writing, my singing, composing, what have you,
Its all pointless.
No one will ever see or know the inner workings of my mind.
The cogs that turn and create the genius that I like to think of myself,
Knowing I'm only average at most,
Subpar even.
Barely worth the air that I breathe.
I'm so lost.
I just don't know how or why or what to do
I can't even begin to fathom the complexities that make up the human psyche
Forcing these words from my mouth and these emotions,
These emotions that ignite a flame within me that is burning my lungs and esophagus like poison!
Poison, of my own creation.
That I chose to drink.
What is wrong with me?
Why can't I just escape from it all?
Let the past die?
I'm not even good for myself.
There's a  plethora of self loathing thoughts and actions that make people think
Why is this kid so weird and crazy?
Well maybe I was crazy then
But now I have begun to fight that peer pressure
And now I am getting a foothold on mountain of suffering that I have felt
And I am climbing up and will overcome this obstacle.
No more shall I hide behind closed doors and fear the very people who are supposed to be like me,
To relate to me,
To be my friends.
And maybe it wasn't all my fault,
Maybe that same person that tore me down time after time was actively trying to stop me from progressing
And maybe the world really was trying to tell me that I won't make it,
But I don't care anymore because I know I can be more and make it.
That little boy that used to cower in fear of those voice that toyed with my head isn't me anymore
Life has taught me to say that I am worth something more
Something great.
Something irreplaceable.
I am my own person.
I have my ups and downs, yes
But this is human nature.
We can't all be normal or perfect.
Not everyone can be the star student,
But I know that each and everyone of us,
Every single that walks this rock we call a home.
We are all flawed
And its those very flaws that make us beautiful.
I am something more than just another voice in the distance.
I see the world for what it really is
And I will no longer take the blame for everything.
I am going to make myself something great.
Me?
I am a changing person
And I won't hold myself back.